Dear World, It's Me

Hello world,
 

I’m Lin. I don’t know where to begin, to be honest. The first time I came to this city, I was 22. Fresh graduate with performing arts major in a small university back in my small town. Clearly I was naïve. I thought I knew what real world is but I don’t at all. I was struggling to get a job. But wasn’t that how everyone started, a struggling actor? I joined several small projects but that’s all. Small projects is small projects.  It gave me experience, sure, but I had rent to pay and food to buy and eventually, I had to have a job. A real job. So I worked in a small coffee shop. The pay was decent, but it was not enough. Then, the economy crisis came and they had to shut down the café. I had no job all over again. That’s when an old co-worker came and offered me a job. ‘You just had to accompany some rich men for a few hours, that’s all’ she said. Desperate for money, I said yes. I cried the first time it happened. This is not the life I wanted. But the rent’s not gonna pay itself so I gotta keep going. Sometimes I wonder where it all went wrong. When all of this started. I tried to look for another job for a few years so I could quit that job but I always end up coming back to it. It’s like a black hole. It took me a few years to realize. I was lost. Lost in the cruelness of the city. Lost in my naivety. Lost in the darkness. Lost halfway between the dream and reality. I was lost in this harsh world that is impossible to escape. Only then it hit me. It was so simple. The world’s not impossible to escape. I just had to say goodbye.

So goodbye, world.

It’s been such a journey. Unfortunately not a beautiful one. See you in another life. If it’s real. Hopefully, it’ll be better next time.

A girl struggling to find a way back home,

Lin*

*P.S: This is purely fictional.